Breastfeeding didn’t come easy for this mom

May 2nd, 2014 by Live Well Omaha Kids

Written by Anna Backhaus, mother of three boys. You can read her blog each week on You can also find Momaha on Facebook and Twitter. This blog was originally posted on May 2, 2014.

77297709I grabbed the “nursing-cape” from my mothers diaper bag, and grabbed my doll. This was how all the women at our church fed their babies—and my doll was hungry. I couldn’t wait for the day I could really breastfeed, a real baby.

Seeing a mom giving her baby a bottle—in my 5-year-old world—was abnormal.

I dreamt of the day I would be a real mom. It happened sooner then I expected—I was seventeen. My son was perfect, but the stress of being a young-single-mom, made parenthood more challenging then ever.

To my disappointment, breastfeeding didn’t come easy to me. My son was only three days old and my breasts were cracked and bleeding. I would cry out in pain each time he latched on to feed.

I had heard all the arguments for breastfeeding. I made up my mind—I was going to figure out how to stick with it. I looked to my mother for encouragement; she had breastfeed my four sisters and me. Plus she’s a nurse, so I respect her advice.

I felt lucky—my mom knew the lactation specialist—I didn’t go without the proper education and support.

For me the social struggle came when I realized to make breastfeeding work I wasn’t going to be able to cover myself to feed my son. At home or in public, I had to breastfeed without using a covering (for modesty purposes) so I could keep him latched correctly.

The following weeks where hard, nights were long and days were longer, but I held on to the belief that I was giving my baby the best start. Eventually, my new baby and I learned what worked for us. Finally, breastfeeding turn into bonding time.

It seems that I had a completely different idea of what breastfeeding really was. I romanticized an experience that was optimized by hard work and perseverance.

I’m grateful I had the opportunity to breastfeed my other two boys as well. And in a way—thankful it wasn’t always easy.

Breastfeeding struggles helped me realize the importance of my choice for my children.

In my life good things always come with a challenge and breastfeeding wasn’t the exception.

A piece of advice—from one mom to another—do what’s right for you and your baby! You’ll find support and joy in the process.

No matter if the road to breastfeeding isn’t easy it will eventually “click” for you.

Plus, you’re inspiring the next generation to want the best for those they will nurture. I’m sure all the mothers from my church had no idea that breastfeeding their babies branded the value in my heart to breastfeed mine.

This is the power of breastfeeding.


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  1. 1 Kami said at 11:32 am on May 2nd, 2014:

    This is a wonderful story! Thank you for sharing! I am just starting my breastfeeding journey. It is wonderful but very hard work. My son doesn’t sleep at night and I produce too much milk for him to eat comfortably so night time feeings are a chore with the pumling and nursing then cleaning. But you are right it is so worth it. I needed to read this I was feeling worn out. Thank you for the reminder of how important breastfeeding is!!!

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